Silly Me

This is a short post to note how ridiculous I am.

Two of my posts have noted my rather protracted struggle with the goodness of God. No need to go into great detail on that...simply read the posts below and it's all there in painful detail.

Yet, something good - no, amazing - happens, and my first thought is "God is so good."

Seriously.

What in the world is it about my little brain that somehow thinks my circumstance has any bearing on the goodness of God?

The amazing thing that happened is that Nate got a job offer...then a second one...all in one day! So he has to choose, but regardless, he should be here in early March.

Oh...my...goodness!!!!!

I went for a run after I got the news, and God took the opportunity to absolutely hit me upside the head with a two-by-four. (No, not literally...although that might be more effective some days.) I'm running, listening to my music, enjoying the weather, and thinking about how good God is. When God breaks into my reverie:

"Oh, so now I'm good?"

I was so shocked that I stopped dead in my tracks. Not shocked that God had spoken, but shocked at what the meaning of His words implied. And I knew He was right. Things go bad, God must not be good. But when things are great, well, God can't get much cooler.

I found myself repenting while finishing my run, listening to the song Completely from the Facing the Giants soundtrack.

Whether in good times or in bad, I really, really want to be completely His. And I want to hold onto this brief moment in time when everything has come together and is working out and I'm confident of God's goodness. Because life is going to do its best to rearrange the way I feel and try to convince me otherwise. But the more I'm in Him, the more I know Him, and the more I love and believe everything about Him.